where am I?

Maybe we can only read about positive parenting in Melbourne and not the other way around. I am sure Asian family values are firmly rooted on doing everything right for the kids. Even my mother is enforcing me to read to lya and she is ONly 21 months mum, I am sure she will say proper words in time. Plus, it;s bilingual so extra effort is needed in my family.

The Sunday Age's lifestyle section featured something outta fitting your child into your life and not the other way around. While today tonite's on channel 7 did an interesting story where a mum is forced to leave a cafe when her baby boy made too much noise. Well, there is a dilemma here my friends, how does one ensure the child can ever FIT into our lives?

Lya does winged when she is bored and not properly entertained in cafe. Now, what I mean was I either have to feed her something nice and new, or a new toy, new book and keep her properly entertained. Sufficiently for 30 mins, which is a good record for parents trust me.

She usually attract nice strangers who gives her loads of attentions and praises. That girl is such a drama princess and I can fortell she would be a social butterfly. I myself am not ONe but I considered myself a late developer. My teen years was filled with horror social stories. I was fat, frumpy and with thick rimmed glasses. Enough said, I would think.

One can guess the sad conclusion.

My confidence only grew in Uni and in later working life. I guess I found my own edge and I tried my best to overcome my shyness and just stay open to what life could bring. Of coz, my chances of travelling around Asia helped me found more focus and changed my view on life. I have worked in Macao, China , Melbourne and Malaysia and each of these places taught me resilience and many life lessons.

I yearn to go back to work. Only because I have unfilled life goals. Of coz, the extra income would help me do what I want. Currently, I have to budget every single thing because of a single income family. He gets to dictates what I spend.

OOO....I am a self confessed shopholic and it;s not limited to fashion and accessories but have grew its ugly heads into interior stuff, white crisp french linen and trips back home.

This is who I am anyway. Denying my poor soul does not help and I have tried to salvage my boredom with my Mother;s group , social outings and refining the art of spending time with myself and lya. But I am still discontend.

Hence, I have decided that when the time is right and my kids are ready to go to kinder, I will have to go back to work, not feeling guilt free of coz. I am sure the kids love to have a stay at home mother, baking cookies and making home made dumplings.

But I simply think it;s for their best interest that I answered my passion for life. I was never meant to be conventional or a desperate housewife candidate. I was meant to push myself further and see where my boundaries lies.

My hunger for greater things in life and juggling family and career is nothing scary to me.

I dare to dream big and migrate so this is just a minor challenge.

Melbourne have such a wonderful family values.

For this reason, I am very blessed.