it;s 6.43 am, Monday, Sep 13th and I am all amp up for the morning operation.
I did sleep quite well. Partner is having some issues with his mother and I am hoping their disagreement would not dampen the spirit that the baby is arriving today, by 11.30 am.
How am I feeling?
Good. Very good. I did once really so I really do know what to expect.
Having mother here is such a comfort and maybe she can see how c-sec is now both safe and very well organized.
My pain tolerance is quite high and I can really honestly, tell you, once you see the baby, everything shoots out the window.
One or two babies, it does not matter. I am having a sibling for little Lya so she can truly understand the bond between siblings.
Something I hope to impart on my partner so he can understand how important family is.
I reckon family are like superglue and how it sticks to you. Even if you want to get rid of that bond, it refuses to let go and somehow, the glue just surrounds you, getting tighter and tighter. Forcing you to embrace its presence and significance?
The birth of life is so fragile, delicate and it reminds you that you are not alone in this cold , cold world.
My life is filled with much disappointments and resentments. But to let those negative experiences dampen my spirits or rewrite my soul, I do not think I have the capacity to hate anyone or wish anyone the worst of luck.
Simply because everyone have a motive , an agenda for what they are doing or is trying to achieve.
I rather just concentrate on myself and challenge myself to be the best that I can be. Discard any bad habits, come to terms that I am still learning and embrace my children.
In this cold land down under, children are my root systems which keep me focus on the long term view that I am building a beautiful family.
The feeling of holding a small infant, fresh and clean outta this world. With no mistakes and nothing but a fresh clean start.
How wonderful can that be?
With all the horrors in the world, like Sep 11th heartache, I hope to find a new meaning in life. I hope all mankind would see beyond their differences and learn to just, live in peace.
I hope my little baby will have a wonderful start in life and never stop believing in miracles itself....
life itself....
Here we go....
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