How time really flies when one do not take notice of the passing days. The countdown has begun and I am only eager to get it done with.
This is my usual home attire. I abide the principle of not dressing up too baggy, so as to uplift my sore mood. Which is always so melancholy. One minute of pure joy and happyness while the other second, feeling blue and down will hit me like a train wreck.
My mother was here since Monday and I have been talking alot to her. It does help to have a good heart to heart talk and have someone there for you. Someone who knows you and allows you to be who you are.
I mainly have a maintain a "composure" with milly , simply because I cannot say what I mean , most of the time, because of diplomacy.
After years of practice, I am so good at diplomacy that I forgot who I really am sometimes.
I am eager to get back on my feet because I feel compel to take care of my family and myself. Not really feeling the need to rely on anyone to help me unless they are willing to abide by ways.
My routine is flexible and even with two children, I am determine to stick to my social routine, go out and not be afraid of anything. Like I said, I will blend my kids into my life and not the other way around.
As anyone would know, in-laws worry endlessly about anything and everything. Their intentions are pure but their sense of control can limit my boundaries and restrict my fulfillment to do it my way.
In 3 weeks time, my life will change, for the better , that I can only have good hope and a good positive outlook.
Life here is such a breeze, too easy for me, coming from harsh realities in Malaysia.
Stay tuned for the chapter to evolve and develop....the plot will thicken soon
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