choices...

SBS was airing this 6-part documentary on childbirth in the 20th century, entitled :" One born every Minute".

It depict the countless journeys of mothers who undergo the pain and joy of labor, in all sorts of lights. First born, water births, long natural labor, C-sec, premature babies and etc. One midwife made an interesting comment, last nite, on how labor is a freedom of choice of woman these days. How they must be allow to choose their own path, drugless free or etc.

Personally, I find myself having to explain to people why I am choosing an elective c-sec in September. Natural birth is hail as the ultimate holy grail and how each woman should at least try and give birth naturally before resorting to the easier way out, c-sec.

I am not , so called, "too posh to push". But I do advise my friends who asked me about the given choices, if you can afford it, just do with the c-sec. It reduces the risk and any potential dramas. Of coz, this is a personal choice. Dun judge me for promoting c-sec, because I am not saying it works for anyone.

Lya was breech and she gave me the choice to have a c-sec. My second child is not any better. My partner is a very impatient man and I do not want to traumatize the ordeal of the unknown natural labor. It could be fast or it could be a slow painful process. Tiring for me and for my partner.

My in-laws are here for the c-sec, a scheduled , orderly operation that suits my needs the most.

Maybe some people would comment that I am rob of the real natural state of labor, child birth per say, the contractions and the birth of the baby itself. My water did broke , for Lya and I did have a 3cm contraction.

I am not bother by any debate. As long as my child is healthy, I am willing to do whatever it takes to ensure both mother and child's , safety and happyness.

Even with nursing, everyone have an ideal debate. I felt compel to nurse Lya because my mother insisted I kept trying to do so. I am not so sure that I will enforce the same rule for Lya when she is faced with this choice?

But I do what I think I can and this time around, I feel I am confident to break down all barriers and only take into account what I think is right. Disregarding what others may advise or comment or judge.

Even refusing the help from my In-laws to send Lya back to China while I nurse my new baby.

I refused to admit defeat till I am broken down to pieces.

As stubborn as I may sound, I am not one to avoid any challenges. In fact, I kinda prefer things to be a bit harder. Work a bit harder. Strive a bit harder.

I feel blessed that I am a mediocre woman. I am neither really smart not really pretty. I am just an ordinary woman who is facing her own true self. Loving each flaws. I am glad that I have so much faith in myself and loving each extra kgs of myself.

At some point in anyone's life, You got to realised, you are your own "best Friend", doctor, career consultant, life coach and etc.