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I dun mean to only post the nice photos, so this shot clearly shows how BIG I really am.

Honestly, the bloating is really evidently and I assumed it's hormones and a concoction of other elements working towards the end of my pregnancy.

I am 36 weeks due. I will end the pregnancy at 38 weeks and the baby is expected to be slightly smaller than Lya because Lya was 40 weeks due.

Emotionally, I am quite a roller coaster case. At some days, I simply feel like tearing down the walls to get what way. Give Lya milk and bath her and let her wear a dress for goodness sake, NO matter what the weather is.

The weather is really reaching spring but there is a Flu bug going on and I guess it's better to be safe and let her continue to wear hideous layers( which make her look like a little BOY!!!)

Vanity has always been my biggest vice. I hate being slumpy and worst, putting on so much weight ( yes, I know it;s all baby) but to lose it again?

I do admit I love to work out simply because of the adrenalin charge. I was such a HUGE girl in Secondary even though I swam often. Refer to the extreme broad shoulders of moi.

But with 2 kids and nursing? How would I ever find the time to work out?

Simple, Improvise. I really can make it on a 7 hours sleep time daily. Anything extra is a waste of time. Do not ask me on where do I even find the energy to do it. I just do.

I do not have anyone to take over my shift and seriously, I realized that I really do enjoy kicking myself to work harder. As if for some lame excuse that I do not have a career and I am not letting myself go soft?

I still wanna work towards a mutual goal and strive harder and harder.

DO the impossible?

Be a domestic goddess ( whatever that means lar), I dun mean baking cupcakes !

But somehow pull through the agony of not messing up my house and still remain sane.

Which mean, I am trying not to lose my cool, NO breakdowns, or crying for no reasons, part of the Post Natal thing, seriously, my body will react accordingly to the hormones!!!

I will try and write about my ordeal ( IF I can find the time).

Note: Lya is obsessed with my laptop and iphone to play wiggles videos and songs!!!

She is barely 2 years old people!

I allowed her to do what she wants, right now anyway, that little girl can kick me sometimes.